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I've thought through.

I choose to leave all things behind. Its easy for me to say now, but who knows, mayb i'll end up struggling so f* hard. I will never and don't want to forget all these things, but i don want to bring them together with me anymore. If i can choose, i rather all these had never happen. But since time can never be turned back, i need to be the one making the change - leaving these behind and move on. I'm so afraid of what my close friends think of me after some things which happened. It sucks and whatever they said kept bothering me. When you guys were giving me advice and scoldin me (i know u don't want me to get hurt in the end), i couldn't stand u guys being so skeptical and all. The words used r so disturbing...I couldn't reply u guys for the first time. I had nothing to say and i couldn't even look at u guys when talking. Friends...i still can't promise i will succeed in doing what i wanna do this time. But i promise i will try hard. I've decided to cut down on clubbing too. Please don't think that i've changed to another person; i'm still the same old zihui u know.

But yea, finally i believe that whatever beautiful picture i paint of will never happen.

actions + words + opinions + advices = realising the truth

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